L.A.kers!

My SEMO schedule Freshmen year in college.

-Monday: Beginning Algebra (2-3:15) -Tuesday: Acting (9:30-10:45); Makeup (11-12:15); First year seminar (2-3:15); Beginning Jazz Dance (4p-5:15) -Wednesday: Rehearsal (12pm-1:15); Beginning Algebra (2-3:15) -Thursday: Acting (9:30-10:45); Makeup (11-12:15); First year seminar (2-3:15); Beginning Jazz Dance (4p-5:15) -Friday: Auditioning (9:30am-10:45am)

Kevan Nutter, 22 year old, veteran.

I really don’t understand why I miss you. Probably because I’m used to you being around. We were together for easily over a month. It didn’t feel like a month but it felt like one of the best months to me. But I didn’t realize this at the time of course. All I saw was you always trying to put me first, make me laugh, smile and happy, and that you cared too much about me. There’s nothing wrong with that, right? Well at the time I felt like you were tooo clingy. Well, I was wrong. I took you for granted and I’m sorry. I’m sorry it couldn’t work out. I’m sorry I fucked it all up. I’m sorry I didn’t know I would lose you when I did. I’m sorry I worried about what my friends thought instead of worry how I felt. We were together for over a month and it felt like longer. We started talking the day before my birthday. But I was still with Grant. Then me and Grant ended and we went on a first date and you went with me to get my belly piercing. Then you drove me around in your car and I was the first girl you did that to in your car. You took care of me and I just felt happy. After that I spent every weekend with you. You started to grow on me. You were there when I was depressed, when I was happy, when I wanted to just say “fuck this life”. You helped me with my audition. You stood by my side and felt like we would last a very long time. And I ruined it!!! And I didn’t know I did until now. So I sit in bed at 11:19pm writing this. Not in any intentions that you will read this but in fact to get it out of my head. I hope you and the new girl you’re with and “love” already stay together and find happiness. Cause you deserve it. I know I couldn’t have done it. But I learned a lesson from this and the one for me will be thankful that I did.

BOREDDD

Really annoyed by the fact that if i’m heartbroken people don’t want to be my friend. seriously.. im always here for you. so please be here for me. i love everyone!

DEAR FILLUP: “If tears could build a stairway on memories alone,
I’d walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again.”

“Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.”

“The flame of love is now just a cold loneliness.”

FAVORITE: “Ask me how many times my heart has been broken
and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars.”

“The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won’t hurt you again.”